“I was deeply in love with you, but now it’s all gone. No more love for you”.
Oh Love, did you know how big the hole is in me when you said that? You saw me through your window with an angry look. You spoke to me that night, our very last moment, in a very angry way. I didn’t see you. It wasn’t you. Your eyes were full of anger and hatred. Those are not the eyes which put me on my knees. You were totally a different person.
“You took me back to the scene when I was with my ex-wife. And since I divorced her, I promised myself I won’t be in that kind of situation anymore”.
Oh Love, please tell me what have I done. Please explain to me… Was I that bad? Did I humiliate you in public? Did I spit on you? Did I do any physical abuse on you? Tell me, love. I begged you on my knee, I non stopably told you that I love you so much. All my words then were just another fire for you that lit your heart with anger and hatred. Are those for me? Or you threw you resentments towards your ex-wife to me? Did I really deserve that kind of treatment?. I have really lost you. Maybe I have never owned you, It’s obvious that you never loved me. You desire me, I admit it, but no love for me. None. Never. You punished me as if you were punishing your ex-wife. Tell me, truthfully if that was fair. Tell me from your heart if I really deserve that?
Dear Love, you have given love a very bad name. You stained it with your anger, ego, and hatred. Oh, maybe you didn’t realize it for you are sick. You’re carrying the deep unhealed pain from your marriage and shout to the world that you are a healed one, meanwhile, you’re trying to cover those bleeding wounds. I am hurt too, Love. I have knives stabbed in me, I’m bruised, I have unhealed open wounds too and they bleed more since you dumped me into a hell.
Let me tell you how I differ from you; I know what love is. Therefore, I always have the love for you. The same kind of love before you said: “I was deeply in love with you”. This love for you is even growing bigger and stronger as you revealed your true colors. Nothing will change the love I have for you.